I AM NOT A RELIGIOUS PERSON.....I AM A SPIRITUAL PERSON.....
It was during this time that the sense of depression & anxiety, that gnawing feeling of not really knowing who I was, seemed to fade. I relax its grip on my spirit and mind. I really was doing something that felt so right. I wanted so much to live up to everybody's expectations and I guess I always will. But like I said, part of growing up and discovering God's will is realizing that His perfection is all you need. Do your best, and He'll take care of the rest.
*Like everybody else in life, however, surprises come whether or not they're part of your neat little agenda.
*No matter what they say "its much harder to prove your innocence that it is for someone else to presume your guilt"
That seemed like an eternity, I felt as if I was falling away from everything I had once known, watching my life disappearing down a dark & dangerous hole. It was a feeling that would stay with me for a long time. It was a feeling I would become very familiar w/ a deep sense of isolation that settled on my heart & mind & set me apart from the rest of the world.
I've heard people talk about having a spiritual experience that knocked their socks off, changed their lives, & set them on the straight and narrow. Sometimes its a vision, sometimes a voice, sometimes just a sudden realization that they've come to a crossroads where there's a life-changing choice to be made--and NO turning back.
I get a real thinking whenever I hear those stories. There's a verse in the Bible that talks about the angels in heaven rejoicing everytime-one Soul is saved. It's a thought I cherish. I've been around long enough that God works in different ways for different people & that He'll do whatever it takes to bring someone to HIM. Each story is different, but the results are all the same! lives changed, hearts softened, and old hurts healed.
We've been given so much, through our families, our friends, & our personal journeys, & there are just a point when you've got to give it away to get some more, and try to touch others as you've been touched.
My life story may not the next installment of an Indiana Jones film, full of hair-raising escaped & last minute rescues, but sometimes the excitement and drama of life are wrapped up in the living of it--day by day..staying true to what you believe and trying to make the most of the gifts you've been given. I'll bet, when all's said and done, that there are a lot of people who have found deep meaning in their seemingly mundane existence & the realization that, in the routines of life, God works His will in miraculous ways.. and maybe like me.. you're one of them.
I know the cliche about girls wanting to find a guy just like their dads, so you can tell typical, but I really do value whatever "my man" has. Its just that I really do value the steady, the calm,& totally reliable dedication that he always showed toward our family.Praying that there's a few left like him when I get ready to settle down...anytime from now.
Don't feel like you always have to have a bf, sure being alone is hard..Sometimes its about the worst feeling. But I think that's where your faith comes in..I'm not saying just let God be your best friend & you'll never feel alone..because you will(form time to time).
But I think If you have His strength to lean on..and His truth to draw from..you can be content and happy with where you are!
No matter how broken my life, I believe God can create something new from the pieces, like a quilt made of scraps, left over of a better time but warming nonetheless..
..Sorrows, heartache,insecurity, & loneliness belong to us all. Financial hardships, broken promises, disintegrating friendships, shattered dreams-----they hound us daily.
-these are just a few hurdles we must overcome if we are to finish the race as victorious Christians..Because our faith is always under attack, I am convinced that the most difficult thing anybody..anywhere will ever attempt is to fulfill a Christian Life!
-though difficult, its the most meaningful, purposeful, & rewarding life anybody could live!
"It is not how Long you Study the Word...it is how Much you Apply the Word!"
It was during this time that the sense of depression & anxiety, that gnawing feeling of not really knowing who I was, seemed to fade. I relax its grip on my spirit and mind. I really was doing something that felt so right. I wanted so much to live up to everybody's expectations and I guess I always will. But like I said, part of growing up and discovering God's will is realizing that His perfection is all you need. Do your best, and He'll take care of the rest.
*Like everybody else in life, however, surprises come whether or not they're part of your neat little agenda.
*No matter what they say "its much harder to prove your innocence that it is for someone else to presume your guilt"
That seemed like an eternity, I felt as if I was falling away from everything I had once known, watching my life disappearing down a dark & dangerous hole. It was a feeling that would stay with me for a long time. It was a feeling I would become very familiar w/ a deep sense of isolation that settled on my heart & mind & set me apart from the rest of the world.
I've heard people talk about having a spiritual experience that knocked their socks off, changed their lives, & set them on the straight and narrow. Sometimes its a vision, sometimes a voice, sometimes just a sudden realization that they've come to a crossroads where there's a life-changing choice to be made--and NO turning back.
I get a real thinking whenever I hear those stories. There's a verse in the Bible that talks about the angels in heaven rejoicing everytime-one Soul is saved. It's a thought I cherish. I've been around long enough that God works in different ways for different people & that He'll do whatever it takes to bring someone to HIM. Each story is different, but the results are all the same! lives changed, hearts softened, and old hurts healed.
We've been given so much, through our families, our friends, & our personal journeys, & there are just a point when you've got to give it away to get some more, and try to touch others as you've been touched.
My life story may not the next installment of an Indiana Jones film, full of hair-raising escaped & last minute rescues, but sometimes the excitement and drama of life are wrapped up in the living of it--day by day..staying true to what you believe and trying to make the most of the gifts you've been given. I'll bet, when all's said and done, that there are a lot of people who have found deep meaning in their seemingly mundane existence & the realization that, in the routines of life, God works His will in miraculous ways.. and maybe like me.. you're one of them.
I know the cliche about girls wanting to find a guy just like their dads, so you can tell typical, but I really do value whatever "my man" has. Its just that I really do value the steady, the calm,& totally reliable dedication that he always showed toward our family.Praying that there's a few left like him when I get ready to settle down...anytime from now.
Don't feel like you always have to have a bf, sure being alone is hard..Sometimes its about the worst feeling. But I think that's where your faith comes in..I'm not saying just let God be your best friend & you'll never feel alone..because you will(form time to time).
But I think If you have His strength to lean on..and His truth to draw from..you can be content and happy with where you are!
No matter how broken my life, I believe God can create something new from the pieces, like a quilt made of scraps, left over of a better time but warming nonetheless..
..Sorrows, heartache,insecurity, & loneliness belong to us all. Financial hardships, broken promises, disintegrating friendships, shattered dreams-----they hound us daily.
-these are just a few hurdles we must overcome if we are to finish the race as victorious Christians..Because our faith is always under attack, I am convinced that the most difficult thing anybody..anywhere will ever attempt is to fulfill a Christian Life!
-though difficult, its the most meaningful, purposeful, & rewarding life anybody could live!
"It is not how Long you Study the Word...it is how Much you Apply the Word!"
